Lovely Awkward: A Year of Wine, Romance and Life Among the French

Lovely Awkward: A Year of Wine, Romance and Life Among the French

Sunday, February 14, 2010

A day to think before Valentine's Day

Yesterday was a thinking day. I've been thinking about what I'm doing here and about what it means to live in France. I think I've made an error in talking about this as a new life. I know what I mean by that but not everyone else does.

What I wanted was a change of landscape and a place where I can discover some new things in my free time. In Ottawa, I was discovering some of the same things over and over again because I had lived there for so long. Here in Nice, many things are new just by default because I've never lived here before.

But the fact that I'm here doesn't mean I want to throw out the old life. There was nothing wrong with it. Most of the things I did and the way that I organized my life had come from years of trial and error. In Ottawa, before I left for France, I lived most of my life exactly the way I wanted.

I'm just here to continue doing that, to experience a few new things and to be with him. I don't want to be completely reborn.

2 comments:

  1. So how was your Valentine's Day? We almost forgot that it was V's Day because we're all very much enthralled by the Olympic Games....

    Do you watch it on TV over there?

    Carmen

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  2. Apparently the French keep winning medals so I'm trying to pretend I'm uninterested :)... but it's great to see the Canadian landscape on the French news either way. I hope you're getting out to see some of the action.

    Kerry

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